Hardship of decisions

I have always wanted to lead. I wanted people to follow me. I wanted to have my own team. I wanted to make impact and make people wonder.

Since high school I worked on myself and today I think that I am a leader and it's really interesting.

Being Lucky

I remember Gary Vaynerchuk saying at LeWeb that his friends come to him saying that he is lucky for being successful but that he points out to them that when they were at the beach with girls, he was working hard towards his future.

People tell me that I am lucky as well and maybe I really am but I don't feel lucky because I can see all I went through to get to this point. For me luck is about opportunities which come and leave and you have to be there prepared for them and take them. Many people are just not prepared or afraid to simply reach out.

Leadership

It feels very egoistic even for me to be talking about leadership and calling myself a leader because in my eyes it has a great value there for if you are one of my fans in denial (also known as haters) please know that I understand that I have a lot to accomplish.

I believe that no one can become a leader, you are either born one or not. But for me a very important sign of a leader is the actual desire of being one and the inner power to work for it. I've heard Czech business man Andrej Babiš talk about his shovel theory which says that when little children play in sandpit with their little kid shovels you can already tell which one is organizing the other kids.

Decisions

Once you become a leader, you will get people who watch you, follow you and even may depend on you. When there is a hard decision or a question ahead you are the one expected to decide or answer. It may be hard but no one will ever do it for you. If you fail, it is going to be your fail and there will be people who will be happy to show you how hard you failed. If you win then it is everybody's win and you will be hated for saying otherwise.

It may seem that decisions are stressful but in a way it had a freeing impact on me and things that stress others usually don't bother me.

Decisions in Celebrio

I am not the one who has full power over Celebrio Software but I am the one who usually makes the decisions because deciding also means knowingly taking responsibility knowing that it just may not work out. I try to do the best decisions for the company and the team and try to take myself from the picture most of the time (which does lead me to some problems sometimes). 

I was the one who decided to use PHP with Nette framework. I do believe it was a good decision but "cool developers" tell me that I should have chosen their programming language. I was the one who created our marketing based on "the grandmother's story" and decided that it's a good idea to simplify Celebrio technology to simply saying that it's an operating system. You have no idea how many "cleverer developers" would kill me for that.

I have to make decisions regarding money, development, people, marketing, investment and everything. When I am doing something stupid often there is someone to explain me how stupid that is (when I listen).

Making decisions is hard. Being leader is hard. Being the one responsible is hard. Being the failure is hard. Being unappreciated for anything you do unless it's a success is tormenting. But I feel free. I feel independent. I feel powerful when I am winning. I feel that my life has a meaning to others. I feel like I am myself I am not afraid to be myself.